Things We Said Today: Prolouge

***Prologue***
"Please don't go". His words broke the silence that had been forged between us, those words stabbed like knifes at my heart. He held me by the wrist refusing to let go, "Please stay with me". His eyes were looking deep into my own. I couldn't look away, the pain was obvious in his eyes, those eyes of his that always gave away what he was feeling. My own eyes started to burn my tears blurring my vision, "Please…don't make this any harder than it needs to be". My voice cracked making me weaker all the same, even though I had told myself I would be strong and not shed any tears. The sky above our heads with its menacing clouds didn't help much either, the rain would come soon I knew it "We both knew this day would come that, I couldn't stay…that I would have to leave eventually".

"I refuse to let you go!" He brought me into a tight embrace my face against his chest, I could hear his heart hammering at his chest. "I love you…I love you more than I could have ever imagined". He was crying that hurt me even more. I felt my own heart shattering into a million pieces. I wanted nothing more than to tell him that I was madly in love with him, that he had made me feel alive like I was wanted for once in my life, that I wanted to stay with him…but I couldn't it just wasn't possible my staying would only hurt us both in the end. Falling in love had seemed like something that would never happen to me, that is until I met him…Paul McCartney, the man who showed me what true love really was. This was also the very man whose own heart I was breaking right now. I struggled on the tight hold he had on me, but he was stronger.

"Let me go", I pleaded him. "No…I wont cant you see that I need you? That without you I have no reason to keep on going". "No Paul.. don't say that, don't ever say that". He took my face in his hands I averted my gaze from his own piercing gaze that never failed to see right through me. "Then look at me and tell me that you don't love me, because I know you do." Tears were streaming down my face nonstop, so much for lying he saw right through it. "I cant tell you that Paul…I…I love you with all my heart, I love you more than my own life". I placed my hand on his cheek, wiping away some tears that he had shed. "Paul, meeting you was the most wonderful thing that could ever have happened to me. "Because you showed me what love is, and I know that the time we spent together was real. You made me feel human. You made me feel loved that's something that nobody else has evoked in me…these past 90 days I have been with you have been the happiest of my life. I know now that those days weren't a dream". "But some things come to an end eventually".

At those words he looked at me sadly his gaze still on me, he had closed the distance I had formed between us. I tried to push him away and run…run like cowards did when afraid. I was afraid…to have to leave him, but his hands were no longer on my face but around me on my waist to be precise. "Please stay" , He pleaded again. "I want you by my side love..Didn't you tell me you would be mine till the end of time?" "Some promises are meant to be broken", my voice firm. I had to break him, maybe if I made him hate me he would be much better off the pain of my departure would be lessened. "I refuse to believe that" It all happened too fast In a split second he crushed his lips against mine. Oh those lips I had grown to adore, those lips that made me go weak in the knees every time he kissed me. My eyes were widened with shock at first, but then they closed on their own accord its funny on how the body moves on its own accord. I felt myself responding to him, but halfway through I managed to stop myself.

The noise my hand made when it made contact with his cheek was much louder than I had expected. The look of hurt on his face was obvious, that's when I took my chance I broke into a run. He reacted three seconds too slow, I had already gained some distance away from him. Tears would not stop coming, along with the sobbing as I continued to run along the streets as the rain finally fell. To my luck or disgrace whichever it was  the streets were deserted the people had all gone to look for shelter from the rain. Paul was not far for he bellowed out my name looking for me, my legs ached but I continued to run until I reached my destination knowing he would not be able to find me. I lifted my head to the sky the rain splattering on my face melding with my tears. "Who ever said love hurts was right".